sometimes

sometimes-i want to run away
sometime-i want to say sorry
sometimes- i want you to vanish
sometimes-i wish you could see me for who i am
sometimes-i want you to die and i regret going out with a person like you
sometimes- i want to say goodbye forever
sometimes-i want to walk up to you and kiss you and walk away
sometimes-i want to understand why

gggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

im hating every part of it. do i like him or not. oi i dont get a break from my family im like the build in babysitter lets dump your children on megan on go out for the day which turns into a night which turns into a week i hate looking after three kids on that long period of time. it gets me down it feels like im being punished for the bad things i did over the years. and you dont even say a thank you for me babysitting no its like drop them at that time and il pick them up at that time i just hate it you just think about you self not any one else just you maybe i do need a break from the kids ok i do.

there is millions of things running though my mind at the moment. its hard to understand them it makes me conpuzzle and dont know what to do. but after a good talk to my sister it made me understand some of those things running though my little head of mine.

sun burnt och

yesterday i got really burnt form swimming with jac. like my back is now red and peeling which is gross also my chest is burnt aswell. but mum and dad dont know that i got burnt and im keeping it that way as mum will give me that speech again. but i did have fun hanging with jac at the pool.

gemz dont leave

there are some things i dont want to go and that is my sister i dont want her to leave if she did id be lost with out her i love here so much. i know you have gone though some hard stuff this year. but you know im here for you, but please dont leave me i beg you dont.

we have had fun over the years like me and you going to seee new moon or me staying at your house and watching random as movies or going shopping. i can trust you with my life and secrets.
you always look after your baby sister me. i also like going on random trips with you in the car.

see there a alot of happy things i love you gems just please dont leave me please dont.