im alone and the truth hurts

im sitting here its two in the morning and i cant stop thinking a bout you.things just repeat over and over again that one night.why did i walk away form that chance to hear you straight up why did i start walking away when you started talking why.maybe i was scared to hear the truth from you of all poeple why. you ran after me and turned me around and then you saw my tears going down my face and you kept saying im sorry im sorry.i try to walk away again but you got a hold of my arm so i couldnt.you hugged me and wiped my tears away and said can you just listen to me please.so i stood there listening to you explaining hearing the truth for your lips and all i could do was just nood as my mouth was to dry to speak and after you finished i started to cry blaming my self of what you did . then out of the blue you kissed me and my body went all jelly like. and i pulled away and started to run from you.you started to run but i was to fast for you so you stoped. i kept thinking why me.i started to walk again thinking just thinking my phone started to ring so i picked up and it was you pleading me to go back to your house and saying i might get killed and i said no and hang up. while i was walking you kept texting me but i ignored you.then you started to look for me and when found me walking to no where you pulled up in your car opened the car door and telling me to get in so i did. when i got in i broke down crying sobbing just sitting there not looking at you.when we got back to you house you stoped and turned the car off. and you said those three little words I LOVE YOU. and all i wanted to do was to cry even more and even hurt myself.and you keeped saying it was a mistake.so i got out of the car walked up the steps to the house and went to your room grabed my stuff and slept on the couch in the living room.