i have got this guy that treats me like a princeness which i love. but i go off at him for no reason. my mate likes him alot but i cant tell her that im going out with the guy she is in love with. so im not going to tell her that we are coz i dont want to ruin what me and my boy have. last week i saw him and the first thought i went in to my mind was hes mine and i dont want to lose him. so what did we do last week well we talked and went out for tea which was so fun.
but one problem is that i cant stop thinking about my ex. i know its sad. but i cant, i love my boy heaps he makes me happy.so i hoping this liking my ex will pass so i can move on and have some fun with my boyfriend i love so much.

last night i think i had one of the best nights so far. it was awsome. i got sticky photos with my mates then went to zebz which was shit and empty and then did some crusing and following and went down manchester and latamier square. thats guys for taking me out on the last minute i had fun and it was good to get out of the house

im sitting here with tears streaming down my face. thinking i sould talk to you in person and tell you myfriend how i feel and get your opinion on this problem that i will be trying to get at.but i ahave a feeling that its going to end up in a big fight between so i will tell you and i dont care i think i should know if im just a friend you dont hang out often. so i want to know am i just a friend not a good mate or not?

im sorry

its not fair. i dont like it i want to tell you how i feel and why you leave me out and not bother about me but if i do its going to end up in a big fight and when i see that you love your other friends not me it makes me think am i just one of you normal friends.that you dont do anything with me and yeah. i just makes me cry that you see me as just a friend nothing else.i pretty much known you for ages but no so i dont know what to do anymore. soon you will think im jelous but im not. i just think you should tell me if we are friends not good mates coz that is what im thinking at the moment.

i hate my life noone ever cares bout me no im there for my mates but no they always not here for me i hate it fuck that im over life no one will ever care anyway i want to dig my self a hole and then hop in and cover myself up and die

i hate it

sitting here thinking is my life worth it.im lost i hate people picking on me and i always do the wrong thing.people just push me over to do things and stuff like that i feel that im everyones slave and i feel left out in things.im feeling the presure. my rents want me to do well but i cant cope.they are fighting like hell so how am i going to do well if the are screaming every minute when im home.school is hell i hate it im the loser kid that is fucked up and has no friends really. im a good person but people dont see me like that. maybe all i sould do is just be a plain boring kid that doesnt do any thing exciting and sit there and listen and do nothing. coz right know i dont know how to act.

he gives me hell in pe.i mean real hell like on friday we were doing a dulathon and he nearly ran me over when i was running and he was biking and shit i just hate it. its not fair how he treats me its not.
maybe i should give him some of this hell but i dont know what? hes the hot popular guy and im the wierd girl.hes higher on the popularlity chain and me you dont want to know.so il think of something when i got back on tuesday and give him some of my hell

i hate him so much he makes me cry. hes the one that started texting me tonight saying abuse and stuff i hate it. so what do i do i start doing abuse aswell calling him a fuckn male hore thats need to be spade or docked. its not cool then he calls me a freak and a slapper and fucken bitch slut and shit. so he and go die the male hore.

today was hard i stood there in netball wacthing you and the next mintue i was next to you defending you. your tall so i couldnt get the ball much only once and you keeped calling me a bitch or a slut under your breathe but i just ingnored you and kept playing. you pushed me and made me fall over and gave me this dirty glear. well im sorry ok for everything but sooner or later people would of found out.so now you are getting over it by punishing me yup me giving me hell which i should deserve but i dont think i do.

i regret everything i have done on that sunday with him why did i do it? i seriously dont know why maybe because i liked him alot and wanted to do that with him and it didnt faze me. but now a few weeks past and i regret it alot. in a way its funny because people is still giving him shit yes i did tell a few people you could say now alot of people know.he calls me names which i knew he would do that after he said i cant tell anybody and what did i do tell some of my mates whch turn out to by the whole year 11.so i think i learn that i souldnt go at the first jump think about it first and talk about it before i do something stupid again like this